A love letter

 I love all the various versions I've known of you

Looking at pictures of you before I met you, and I love her too

My best friend, my girlfriend, my fiancee, my wife

My lover, my partner, my life

I'll always be there next to you

I can't wait to meet the next you

And I know I'll love her too

2021

These feel like imaginary years

A weird movie that is too long

I keep waiting to be able to emerge from the theater

To blink in the sunlight as my brain readjusts to the reality that was out here waiting

And not to find out it was only an intermission

My dreams and hopes are paused, on life support

Warped clumsy reflections of our lives unspool across the calendar

And we try to hold out

And to survive

Long enough to not watch the credits