Silver Lining

The silver lining is
the closer we get
to wiping ourselves
from existence, the
more comfortable I
get with seeing us go.

Trees

You've been told broccoli
looks like little trees

But when you're hungry it may be
That trees look like giant broccolies 

Darn Cat

The cat wants to cuddle 

The cat wants to play

The cat needs their

litter box changed

No matter what that cat wishes to say

He expresses it all in exactly the same way

Bite 

Clouds

Frozen explosions

Violence in silent slow motion

Breaking waves that have escaped the ocean

Sin

If there is any kind of God
If there is a divine
I think the closest we get to it
is when we create
To honor a creator
and creation
create

And the biggest sin
ever committed by man
was using this drive
the desire and ability for creation
to infect our children with self hatred
in order to market 
false cures 

A Poem For Shane

When Shane Macgowan dies you write a poem 

What else is there to do? 

Listening to the Pogues and crying while driving 

I imagine the force that kept his heart pumping blood 

despite a lifetime of poisoning 

I imagine it as a star exploding 

It's shards lodging in the chests of poets the world over 

Infecting us 

Making us dance and sing 

driving us to put our tears and struggles and anger into rhythm and rhyme and verse 

to sing the pricks and pigs back into whatever hell they climbed out of 

and raise our voices 

as we raise our glasses 

and sing a song for Shane

Dead Friends

I unfriend my dead friends
on social media

Feels cold, but keeping 'em felt morbid.
Either way, I don't think they mind.

I smelled real wood smoke

Night isn't night enough, we've diluted the darkness
the fire in the fireplace is mostly decorative
An ever shrinking number of stars  are visible in the sky

but we're rarely eaten by wolves anymore

I wake up knowing most of my neighbors are waking too
We survive the nights for the most part
and die so very much more slowly sitting at a desk

an attack by wolves might be a better way to go

My Dads Been To War

Dad's been to war
And he doesn't talk about it
Not talking isn't exactly a family trait
not at all what we're known for
this silence about what he saw there
words couldn't possibly say more

When I was a young man
Watching the politicians on TV
my dad pointed at the most combative of them
screaming America was worth fighting for
Every one if these hawks, without exception, he explained
Were men who'd never been to war

Old Men Talking Politics at The Coffee Shop

I romanticize the idea of old men sitting 

at the coffee shop arguing politics

but this morning I sat next to exactly this scene

as I drank my morning cup

and a more boring conversation I can't imagine

delivered somehow with great passion

I put my headphones on

and turned my music up

My Rosary Beads

I was raised a Catholic
and still a rosary hangs from my headboard
bought for me by my father
who is an agnostic

I tease him that he's just
afraid of commitment
an atheist down deep
in his soul that don't exist

He gifted me them before
I visited a war zone
He said "It couldn't hurt"
Feeling helpless, he hedged his bets

I keep my prayer beads
there, by my godless head at night
Connecting me to my childhood
When I loved and feared the Christ

Crickets

We brought my daughter home to a noisy four plex next to the railroad tracks. 

She taught me to appreciate our home. 

I thought living by the railroad tracks was awful, 

the train would go by and shake our whole house.

I needed my little girl to show me that it was awesome

“The train, daddy!” she’d holler

And we’d rush to the porch in our pajamas

And watch the trains go by

She’d call out the name of each car

Both the descriptive name, 

Hopper, engine, boxcar

But also their proper first names

Thomas, Spencer, Percy

We went from living next to the tracks

To having train front property

From there we moved to a duplex

Next to two freeways, and a busy street

With a big hospital

The train noise replaced

By the constant presence of helicopters

Police and ambulance sirens

Cruisin’ Impala’s with booming sound systems

And within this cacophony she found music

And she’d add her voice

The neighbors coming to know her as

The kid who sings

We continued our pattern

finally moving to a home of our own

A one plex

According to our postal address we were still in the city

But we were off the numbered and alphabetized grid

Only one numbered street reached out to us

Like a tentacle from the noisy city center keeping us connected

And it was quiet

my first night in my new bedroom

I heard the crickets

I delighted to realize

I’d final gotten my little girl to a place peaceful enough

For her to hear nature’s nocturnal symphony of chirps

And as I smiled to myself, 

I heard her yell from her room

“SHUT UP, CRICKETS!”

 

The Weatherman

 The weather man said people are gonna die today

Not in those words

he spoke of freezing winds

and rain

and other reasons to stay inside

the weatherman said people are going to die

so cover your plants

and bring in your patio cushions

Its Cold in Sacramento

Today I walked past a man wrapped in a blanket sleeping on the sidewalk. I walked past him. I can't imagine what his night was like. My ears hurt from having to walk a few blocks to work.

Did he have a tent at some point and our police cut it with razors and threw it away? I don't know, but I do know that they do this. They take homeless people's tents away from them, and cut them, and throw them away.

We have money to bomb other poor people but not to house our own, and then we go and we take their tents away and destroy them.

And I walked past him.

He was next to a gas station. Just a few yards away were houses, warm cozy houses like the one I woke up in this morning. If he broke a window to climb into one, he'd likely go to jail, and then be fed and housed. Instead he wrapped a blanket around himself, and lay on the cold sidewalk overnight.

And that's where he still was this morning, when I walked past him.

I don't know what to do. We complain, we demonstrate, we vote, we volunteer, but he still had nowhere to go last night, and it keeps getting worse and I can't keep walking past him.

And tomorrow, I'll walk past him again.

I'm Sorry

 I'm sorry

We just wanted to give you a good start

a jumping off place

somewhere safe to grow

to imagine dragons and be a tiger

to find that spark

and you did

and it grew

and you positively glow 

we succeeded

we can pat ourselves on the back

you're a gem, a truly unique, brilliant, beautiful thing

but we didn't warn you enough

we let you live in a safe world 

while outside there was ugliness and monsters

flame extinguishers

damaged, nasty things that hate the light

I'm sorry

I'm sorry we sent you full of stories

singing your own songs

into a world of marching to someone else's 

dull thud of a beat

I'm sorry

you should have to be the bomb

the solution

the revolution

the fight

thank you for being so strong

for taking on that struggle

for not bowing

I'm sorry

Family Value

I believe in hate

I am full of it

I eat it for breakfast

It's also my bedtime snack

I will not teach my daughter not to hate

I will instead practice with her her aim

We will hate together

Hate is our family value 

Hate is right

Hate for those whose selfishness, greed, prejudice, and willfull ignorance harms the innocent and poisons our world

Love is important but

It turns out

It is not all you need