Tuesday, February 11, 2025

Crickets

We brought my daughter home to a noisy four plex next to the railroad tracks. 

She made me appreciate our home. 

I thought living by the railroad tracks was awful, 

the train would go by and shake our whole house.

I needed my little girl to teach me that it was awesome

“The train, daddy!” she’d hollar

And we’d rush to the porch in our pajamas

And watch the trains go by

She’d call out the name of each car

Both the descriptive name, 

Hopper, engine, boxcar

But also their proper first names

Thomas, Spencer, Percy

We went from living next to the track

To having train front property


From there we moved to a duplex

Next to two freeways, and a busy street

With a big hospital

The train noise replaced

By the constant presence of helicopters

Police and ambulance sirens

Cruisin’ Impala’s with booming sound systems

And within this cacophony she found music

And she’d add her voice

The neighbors coming to know her as

The kid who sings


We continued our pattern

finally moving to a home of our own

A one plex

According to our postal address we were still in the city

But we were off the numbered and alphabetized grid

Only one numbered street reached out to us

Like a tentacle from the noisy city center keeping us connected

And it was quiet

my first night in my new bedroom

I heard the crickets

I delighted to realize

I’d final gotten my little girl to a place peaceful enough

For her to hear nature’s nocturnal symphony of chirps

And as I smiled to myself, 

I heard her yell from her room

“SHUT UP, CRICKETS!”

 

Wednesday, February 05, 2025

The Weatherman

 The weather man said people are gonna die today

Not in those words

he spoke of freezing winds

and rain

and other reasons to stay inside

the weatherman said people are going to die

so cover your plants

and bring in your patio cushions


Its Cold in Sacramento

Today I walked past a man wrapped in a blanket sleeping on the sidewalk. I walked past him. I can't imagine what his night was like. My ears hurt from having to walk a few blocks to work.
Did he have a tent at some point and our police cut it with razors and threw it away? I don't know, but I do know that they do this. They take homeless people's tents away from them, and cut them, and throw them away.
We have money to bomb other poor people but not to house our own, and then we go and we take their tents away and destroy them.
And I walked past him.
He was next to a gas station. Just a few yards away were houses, warm cozy houses like the one I woke up in this morning. If he broke a window to climb into one, he'd likely go to jail, and then be fed and housed. Instead he wrapped a blanket around himself, and lay on the cold sidewalk overnight.
And that's where he still was this morning, when I walked past him.
I don't know what to do. We complain, we demonstrate, we vote, we volunteer, but he still had nowhere to go last night, and it keeps getting worse and I can't keep walking past him.
And tomorrow, I'll walk past him again.

I'm Sorry

 I'm sorry

We just wanted to give you a good start

a jumping off place

somewhere safe to grow

to imagine dragons and be a tiger

to find that spark

and you did

and it grew

and you positively glow 

we succeeded

we can pat ourselves on the back

you're a gem, a truly unique, brilliant, beautiful thing


but we didn't warn you enough

we let you live in a safe world 

while outside there was ugliness and monsters

flame extinguishers

damaged, nasty things that hate the light

I'm sorry

I'm sorry we sent you full of stories

singing your own songs

into a world of marching to someone else's 

dull thud of a beat


I'm sorry

you should have to be the bomb

the solution

the revolution

the fight

thank you for being so strong

for taking on that struggle

for not bowing

I'm sorry

Tuesday, January 21, 2025

Family Value

I believe in hate

I am full of it

I eat it for breakfast

It's also my bedtime snack


I will not teach my daughter not to hate

I will instead practice with her her aim

We will hate together

Hate is our family value 


Hate is right

Hate for those whose selfishness, greed, prejudice, and willfull ignorance harms the innocent and poisons our world

Love is important but

It turns out

It is not all you need